Tuesday, November 24, 2015

November Impression

I can’t get warm.

It has been so cold outside lately, especially in the evenings. I keep walking in it. It pierces the exposed bits of skin on my face where my thick, green scarf and knitted hat won’t meet. Pin pricks on my cheeks, and nose, and I keep my head facing forward, concentrating on the nowhere I am going. My breath clouds me as I try to follow it with my eyes, each exhalation fades into the dark grey that surrounds me. There is a tiny hole in the corner of my left mitten, so I keep my hands jammed in my pockets. The soft pad of my finger traces the bottom of my pocket where a penny resides, tiny cold metal.

My mind has been aching for weeks, months. Too much drinking, dancing, singing, laughing, crying, working, reading, moving, always, always moving. It is as if there just isn’t room up there for me anymore.

The long streets stretch before me, with seemingly endless sighs. The houses are quiet, warm hubs. The tall, black trees make this street a cave. I just recycle songs.  

I take a deep breath, the approaching winter fills me. Winter is something I can both taste and smell, sharp snowflakes, mixed with dirty city air dissolve in my lungs. A painful comfort, because it makes me endure reality.

Salt, snow, and leaves crunch beneath my dead boots as I march through the tail end of this transitional season.  The sky is always either pink, or grey. The sun is long gone now, and the darkness breaks the static in my brain into two halves. Each side is folded into pockets, and the noise quells as the snow drifts in.

My toes are hard, my skin is at constant alert, and my nose will inevitably drip. I can't get warm, but this late November impression keeps self-sufficiency on my side.

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Little Bits: October On Instagram

October. my favorite month of the year. has flown by yet again. This year was different from all of the previous years in so many ways, I missed out on a few of my favorite activities, but, had so many wonderful new adventures. I went to Theater Bizarre for the very first time with the Party Cats, went to a pirate party, finally went to Erebus, and celebrated entering my 30's twice! Now that Thanksgiving is upon us, I am starting to crave hibernation. The past few weekends have been a very good balance of partying with friends, and low-key things like thrifting, brunch,trips to Lush, and spontaneous coffee dates. I am looking forward to continuing this balance, with a few more nights in during the week. 2015 was the year of embracing myself, and letting loose. I am looking forward to a year of becoming mentally, and physically healthier. I want to continue spending time with all of my wonderful friends, reading, working on this blog, and going on adventures. 2016 is going to be the year of balance (I am a Libra after all), so why not start now? 

Oh, and my hair is blue now. 


1) Wrapped-up the last weekend of the Michigan Renaissance Festival selling merch for Stone Clover, and enjoying loads of cider. 
2) Pumpkins at the Detroit Whole Foods looking very pumpkin-y.
3) New fall boots!
4) The extent of my fall decorating. 
5) Party Cats at Theater Bizarre.
6) Amazing birthday art by H.D. Harris.
7) Trip to Franklin Cider Mill. 
8) Cider + doughnuts = perfection. 
9) Had a low-key Halloween running around in sparkly dragon horns.

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Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Eats: Chili Stew


Just a few months ago it was the norm to come home after work and cook dinner on a nightly basis, but since moving home, I am lucky enough to have two parents who are exceptional cooks (where'd you think I got it from anyways?). I received some beef tips from a friend of mine who works in a restaurant, and I decided to make a chili for the 'rents and my brothers. I chopped up all of the veggies, and cooked the beef tips the night before, and just threw everything in the fridge overnight. The next morning, I tossed it all in a giant crock pot, and let it cook all day while I was at work, and it came out perfectly. 


2 lbs beef tips, cooked in olive oil, seasoned with chili, black pepper, and sea salt. 
1 can of sweet corn, drained. 
1 can of red beans, drained. 
4 carrots, peeled & chopped
4 stalks of celery. chopped
1 can of stewed tomatoes
1 can of chopped tomatoes
1 can of water
2 bell peppers, chopped
3 chili peppers, chopped
Salt & Pepper to taste.

It cooked on low, for about 8 hours. Then we topped it with sour cream, shredded cheese, and some crusty bread that my mom had picked up. Then feasted on it for about a week because there was SO MUCH.  My brother Mark referred to it as chili-stew, so there you go. Happy eats!

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Little Bits: September On Instagram!

Of course I wait until mid-October to post a recap of September, of course! I am a full-fledged Party Cat, but I am also the pokiest of puppies. September was a fantastic month, despite all of the ups and downs.  Work has been brutal, trying so hard to stay on top of things, and I am still pretty skint, but I am managing. I have the love of so many wonderful people in my life, and that has kept me going when I have felt so very down. It is hard to believe that the person writing this blog post was such an introverted control freak a year ago, and has transformed into an almost free-spirited outgoing-introvert. People can completely change their mentality, alter their views, learn new strengths, and acquire a new disposition in as little as a few months. Personal growth, and all of that good stuff.

Anywho! Onto some of the highlights of the past month, there were quite a lot of them:

-Comics! When you forget to pick up your comic pull for a few months, you end up with loads of delicious reading material! Go figure.

-A new blog title for the new adventures that will be had and *hopefully* documented on this blog.

-The Michigan Renaissance Festival! I have always loved going up to faire, but this year was vastly different. I not only ended up with a few little jobs helping out with merch, I camped out with some of my closest friends almost every single weekend.  I made some incredible new friends as well, and have never met such a welcoming, loving group of people in my life. I value each and every one of the friendships that I made, and cannot wait to see those wonderful faces again.
*Thanks to Sergio Mazzotta for the pics below!

-Weezer! This was my first Weezer concert without Kyle, and I was lucky enough to have one of my best friends (and fellow Party Cat!) Jen with me to make some new Weezer memories. It was also their first time in Michigan in five years! So it was kind of a big deal.

-Enjoying being home. Granted, I am gone almost every weekend, but I have made time to hangout with my brothers, bake cookies, and eat all of the food in the house. Word. 


Currently I am working on my costume for Theater Bizarre, and getting ready to hit the gym with Jen, so here is where I leave you lovelies. Happy Wednesday!

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Thursday, September 24, 2015

Warm Morning In July

I wrote this little blurb out and posted it on Facebook back in July, and although I never bothered to edit it, I thought I would share it on the blog.  I never gave it a title, and I don't really have any further plans for it, but since this blog is a scrap-book of sorts, I feel that it is okay to add this little writing exercise in. I wrote this on a humid Saturday morning at work when I was supposed to be catching up, but for some reason could not stop narrating everything that I was doing that day. I was training myself to be more appreciative of the present, and this was the result. 

Warm Morning In July

It’s barely 7 am and the warm air in the warehouse has seeped through into the office. Still, I sip from my steaming mug of coffee, a small but much needed comfort as I continue the mindless task of entering driver logs so early on a Saturday when I would normally be sleeping in. The soft denim of my overalls are a warm hug on my legs, and despite the heat, I am grateful for these small comforts. Hot coffee, soft jeans, and enormous pink headphones to drown out the sound of the hi-lows and fill my mind with music videos that were never made.
On days like this I tend to be more selective with my music choices, and The Relationship is soothing. Brian Bell tells me that he sees beauty in the things I do wrong, and I wonder if he has ever covered Elvis Costello. “Radio Sweetheart”.
Popping the headphones off, I take a quick walk to the garage to pick up more logs. The large, old fan dangling from the ceiling blows warm air around, and causes the fine strands of hair on my head to tingle along my scalp. On my way back to the office, I see my comrades for the morning going about their business. Paul is enamored in a text message, clicking away almost-frantically, the hi-lo beside him on idle. Mark is rubbing the sleep from his eyes and headed towards the lunchroom with an empty coffee mug, neither of them taking notice of me. My converse are quiet against the warehouse floor as I walk away, and I wonder if this is what a super power feels like. I am in this moment, invisible.
Back at my desk, the air in the office is getting warmer. I top off my coffee, and the stack of logs is daunting, but I don’t mind. For the very first time in weeks, I don’t think of what I have to do later today. Faces of loved ones flicker across my mind, and for once I don’t wonder when I’ll see them next. This is a practice of living in the present, a difficult feat for an anxiety-ridden female who dwells on the mistakes of her past, and the uncertainty of her future. I am slowly acknowledging that living in the present is too like a super power, as I become hyper-aware of my surroundings. The clapping noise as a pallet hits the warehouse floor, the growls escaping the coffee pot beside the printer, the soft hum of my mini desk fan, and the scent of sweet pea of the lotion on my hands whisking up my nose as I push the bridge of my glasses back into place with my index finger.
I search my mind to placate what I am actually feeling in this moment, and it is an unexpected blanket of contentment. Hot coffee, warm jeans, and yet I feel almost intangible. Super powers. Simple things, boring things, are what my life is made up of in these quiet moments of self-awareness, and they are much appreciated for once.
I place my headphones back on, they cushion my ears as the Decemberists truly convince me to not carry it all.

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Everything Has Changed


A lot has changed since these photos were taken on a 90 degree day back in July: Summer is all but gone, my bangs are no longer mint green, I've lost about six pounds due to stress, I've gained a core group of friends that I will forever be thankful for, and I moved back home. It is very surreal being in the same room I once lived in at the age of 10, and then again at 18 when I dropped out of Eastern Michigan University. It almost feels the same; I am broke, I crash with friends on weekends so that I don't have to be home, and I am overdosing on coffee. The truth about shitty situations in life? Time. It sounds like a lie, but time will help, it will fix your head, and your heart, just not all at once. It's all a bit wibbly-wobbly, timey-wimey ;)


Since this is a new chapter in my life, I thought that a new blog title was in order. I cannot live without coffee, and I can't seem to go a week without being a Party Cat, so Cat Ears & Coffee it is! I am not entirely sure if much will change around the blog, it has always been a hodge podge of outfit photos, DIYs, life-stuff, foodie posts, and local happenings, and I plan on keeping it that way. The best way for me to wade through this mess in my life right now is to keep busy, so the blog has been put on the back-burn for a bit. I have lots of posts planned out in my crazy, cat-lady brain, so I am hoping to make them happen as the weeks go by, so, stay tuned for less depressing posts!


Top & Shorts-Amazon
Shoes & Purse-Thrifted
Floral Cat Ears- Forever 21